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By: Joél Leon

No Ceilings is a monthly Black Youth Project column by Joél Leon where he explores the uninhibited magic, joy and potential of Blackness, boyhood and masculinity. 

 

“Where there is no vision, the people perish…” Proverbs 29:18 

 

Growing up in the Bronx in the 80s and 90s, I spent much of my childhood in my mother’s bedroom in our 2-bedroom apartment on Creston Avenue. Not because she had brought me there for a stern conversation, or some mild form of Caribbean punishment as would be expected from a mom born and raised in the West Indies around that time. It was because, while my mother slept on our living room sofa (which I would later learn was because she needed to be closest to our door in case she needed to exit and run from my father), I played. 

I used her room as my laboratory, experimenting with all forms of art-making: imaginary films, imaginary recording groups, and imaginary auditions for those groups; drawing album covers and writing album titles and track listings. There would be wrestling matches and action-filled battles with G.I. Joe’s to orchestrate mild escapes. It was in that room where I discovered art in my own way. It became the foundation for how I would interpret my own Black imagination. There were literally no ceilings to my creativity. 

As I enter what will soon be my 44th revolution on this planet, I find myself reflecting on where my imagination has led me and trying to make sense of what leaning into our collective imaginations can leave us. My life has been a series of transitions—my 10-year-old is turning 11 years old in November, having graduated fifth grade in June. She will be starting middle school here in New York in September. My six-year-old graduated kindergarten in June and started first grade. My mother turned eighty. My stepfather turned ninety-nine on October 3rd and passed away on October 10th. I just made five years at my current 9-to-5 job. And I am here today, questioning every single thing I know about myself, questioning who I am, who I’ve chosen to be and the path I’ve chosen. Or rather, the path that has chosen me. 

In all actuality, the past two years have seen different variations of transition coming to life. It has been a time of grief, expansion and contraction; remembrance, forgetting, surrender; the endings of partnerships and friendships. This season has been a series of starts and pauses, beginnings and endings. The heaviness has been all-consuming, and I find myself as a Black man sitting with his own mortality, sitting with his own legacy. I also find myself reconciling the fact that many of my elders, ancestors, and artistic luminaries did not make it this far. Malcolm X, Martin Luther King Jr., Fred Hampton, Medgar Evers, Chadwick Boseman, and Virgil Abloh, to name only a few. The pressure to be more than, to exceed and excel, to move beyond and further than those before me, and even those here, is haunting. All of this, while still maintaining the role of father, friend, community server, provider, role model, and mentor, is exhausting. It is this season of transition that I grapple with as I write this column, as I pass through the many multitudes of my existence, not only as a Black man, but as a Black man in Donald Trump’s America, existing within the systems of the white supremacist patriarchal capitalistic system I attempt to survive in, as bell hooks so eloquently put it. 

“The more we imagine our potential, the more it waters the seeds of awakening.” – Tara Brach

I wrote a book in 2024 that I’m extremely proud of, titled Everything and Nothing At Once: A Black Man’s Reimagined Soundtrack for the Future. I compiled the book as a series of essays over five to eight years, documenting my growth as a Black man born and raised in the Bronx and exploring culture, fatherhood, love, and friendship. It is the book I always wanted to write. 

Following the writing of Everything and Nothing At Once, I have sat with what the future looks like for not just Black men, but all men, and holistically, all people, who are seeking new ways to get free, to liberate ourselves from old ways of thinking that limit how we can come together as a society. This is my attempt to explore its uninhibited magic, joy, and potential. 

The name No Ceilings is inspired in large part by the seminal 2009 Lil Wayne mixtape, as I aim to further the dialogue around the limitless potential of love, community, and vulnerability that serves as the foundation of Blackness. Each month—through the personal essay, the poem, through music, books, arts, culture, and news—I will try my best to unpack the many ways the imagination of Blackness has been stifled by the oppressive standards of the systems we are up against, with the hope of creating new pathways for our collective liberation.

So while this column, written by a Black man living in America, born and raised in the Bronx, was written for Black boys and men, it is also written for every person who’s trying not only to reimagine the systems as they currently exist, but to do so in a way that expands well beyond the current framework that we are working under. No Ceilings is about us confronting the now, the before, and hereafter. It is current events. It is 1000-word monologues; it is an opportunity for me to challenge others and for them to challenge me, too. It is also an opportunity for us to challenge each other. 

I’m unsure if I’m progressing or regressing, but my best work has always happened on the page, with me attempting to better understand not only myself, but the self that is functioning in a very dysfunctional world. I’m asking myself, and each of us, what makes us alive and what is possible? What can we imagine? What can we re-imagine? What can we build on what already exists, and what can we build that we’ve never seen before? How much more curious can we be about ourselves, about the world around us, about the things we’re working on and working through? How deep are we willing to go to see ourselves and see each other? How much more willing can we be to investigate and re-investigate, over and over again, who we are, where we come from, and who we are becoming? What is possible, what was once considered impossible, that we are shaping into an incredible realm of feasibility in the here and now in the face of fascism, of a threatening oligarchy, of totalitarianism, of xenophobia, transphobia, the likes of which we’ve never seen before? 

And while adolescent me lacked any of the language of what it means to imagine and reimagine anew, I like to believe that, even then, I understood deeply what it meant to be free. My mother gave me the space to explore the ideas that would shape my existence, and now I can give shape to this column. I also would like to believe that, like any good abolitionist who sees a better future and a better world for all of us, even the most wretched, that any and everything is indeed possible. And that possibility of the unimaginable starts here, with us, and with you. There are no ceilings, no limit to who we are and what we’ve yet to become.


Bio: Joél Leon, author of the 2025 Gotham Book Prize-nominated Everything and Nothing At Once: A Black Man’s Reimagined Soundtrack For the Future is a Bronx-born girl dad, poet, performer and cultural critic who writes and tells stories for Black people.

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